क्या हुआ??

I don’t really think so! Bacon, eggs cooked in the leftover bacon grease, toast, coffee and the BEST store-bought orange juice I have ever had. The only thing that would make this better is a waffle, but I definitely do not have a waffle iron.

I think I’ll make pancakes next weekend.

Man, this week is quite the opposite of last week. Instead of laying in bed wishing I could trade in for a new sinus cavity, I’ve been all over the dang place. Monday I turned in my first paper of the semester and went to a movie in Austin for the FIRST TIME!! Yeah, that’s right. I was taken to the Alamo Drafthouse by a new acquaintance to see Zombieland. This was really cool for two reasons. First of all, Zombieland was a great film. But the Alamo is a really fun place in and of itself. Before the film they were showing all these snippets of old and really terrible horror films. I tell ya, I am not a big horror film person usually, I was just cracking up at this one except for the part that DID NOT EVEN INVOLVE ZOMBIES! If you’ve seen Zombieland, you know what I’m talking about…I seriously almost screamed.

Yesterday went alright. I had a pretty helpful meeting about my thesis research and know that I really need to figure out over the next two weeks exactly what I’m arguing for and against in my paper. Urdu class went okay, though my translations were pretty horrendous overall.

Then there’s TODAY! Today I took the Foreign Service Officer Test. I’m really hoping I passed, but it could go either way at this point. There were some questions I very easily answered, but the ones about economics or random international geography threw me for a loop. In any case, I’ll find out in 3 weeks if I’ll be continuing on to the next phase. The best part is that I couldn’t figure out where the southbound bus stop was after the test, so I kept walking down Airport Blvd for like a mile and a half looking for one. I’m pretty exhausted now, but I’m happy that I actually took this test finally. Even if I don’t pass this time, I’ll be more prepared to study for the next one!

So this is what I guess I’m working on now. So there are certain things which I get now, but the problem is actually balancing necessities and principles and duties and my own mental stability.

Why is balance such an issue? Because for the entirety of my existence I’ve defaulted into extremes. I’m either almost obnoxiously chipper or questioning my existence, I’m gung-ho about something or a complete fatalist, I’m either totally selfish or compromising to a fault. Sometimes I’ve had to just pick the option which will end in the least amount of damage. For example, I’ve learned over the past few years that there are certain people I have to cut off completely because I’m likely to compromise and give and worry so much that it ends up being detrimental. Luckily, I’m learning this more quickly and am, more importantly, learning to stand up for myself.

Sometimes I still get in my mode of just wanting to get along with everyone and wanting to make everyone happy, and I’m still extremely disappointed when things don’t go that way. But the key is not letting that potential disappointment keep me in unhealthy situations.

Anyway. In addition, I’m taking the FSOT on Wednesday!! I’m a bit nervous but hoping for the best. Also, some of my thesis research is starting to come together. Oh, and I bought my plane ticket to Milwaukee which means I’m spending this Thanksgiving with my relatives! Hooray!

Okay, that’s all for now. Back to Urdu!!